whats the purpose???

I dont know what is happening right now ...

Before I was conflicted, torn and now ... its worse ... I'm off to do it all over again ...

In everything that I do, I put purpose first ... Everything I do has a purpose ...
Before I had a purpose ... now Im nothing ...

its like my every move i hurt somebody ...

I dont deserve this ... they dont deserve me ...

whats happening to me ... Is there a point even ...
sana ... sana hindi na lng ganito ...

sana hindi ko na lng nalaman ... masmadali siguro ang buhay ko kung tinakasan ko na lng ang lahat ... kung tinakasan ko na lng sana to ... ako lng sana ang nasasaktan ... ako lng sana ang nahihirapan ... pero hinde ... kelangan ko png mandamay ...

Is this what suppose to happen ???

What the purpose ???