I really feel like a bad person ...
I am so evil that I cant even look at myself right now ...

before I felt love I had this idea of love that cannot be compared, before I felt love i treated love like it was the only thing important in this world. The minute I felt love I felt different, it felt so good that I cannot be without it in my everyday life, I never thought of myself and I never thought of anything else but love ...

Then I felt pain ... I am still feeling the pain up to this very minute ... the love that was supposed to be so idealistic is now just an idea, an idea that i cannot look at right now ...

The pain is too overwhelming ... the pain is soooo unbearable ... the pain is just too much for me to handle ... the pain is still here in my heart ...

Now im just too afraid to be hurt ... to afraid to love again the way I imagined it to be ...

Im a failure and now Im the most evil person in the world ...