WHAT NOW

its been a while
my life is in fast forward now as we speak ...
everyday is just passing ...
maybe that's one reason im not hurting anymore ...
if you want to achieve something, you must fastforward yourself ...
hehe ...
I remember click ...

ignoring everything around you ...
to achieve your major goal ...

But what am I right now ??? am I relieved that im not hurting ???
Am I stronger ??? will I be the person I was ...

WHo Am I right now ...

I always work ...
I drink all the time ...
I waste my money all the time ...
I waste my time a lot ...
I always look for something I dont need ...
I cant even fulfill a simple promise ...

Im always saying im cool ... im not
Im always saying im in control ... im not
Im always saying im okay ... im not
Im always saying im alive ... im not
Am I breathing ... no I'm not

I dont have enough rest
I dont have enough respect for myself
I dont have my life already
I dont know what will happen tomorow
I dont ... I dont know ...

I just dont know ...

what now ...